Thursday, October 30, 2008

Look how far I've come

Was watching House and Scrubs the other day and it had me thinking about my life. Now I am not a doctor and my work deals in no way what so ever with the medical world (except for occasionally videotaping a person going to a medical appointment) but there was the briefest of times (I'm talking Planck length time span here) where I was actually heading towards that direction. My family had great and high hopes that I would be the first doctor in the family and go on to achieve great fortune and success...

Yeah that didn't turn out to well...

Despite the assurance of my family that I could pursue any career I wanted, I still knew that deep down inside they were saddened when I chose to deviate from their set plan. It's just that gut feeling I got when I went to the family functions immediately after the bomb shell. Don't get me wrong...the love was still there but there was something palpable there beneath the surface.

My ideal career was to have something with meaning that would help people. Individuals and communities alike. Something noble. I'm currently working as a private investigator checking out workers compensation claims. Ok it's not the most noble of jobs I know but I try to look at the big picture and how I'm helping people through what I do. I'm out there sweating it out in a van to bust people who are trying to abuse the system and bleed money from other hard working people. Through our (PI's) work, we try hard to keep insurance and health care costs down by catching those who would try and cheat the system.

When you look at it like that, the work can sound pretty noble right? By keeping that mind set, it makes my job a little easier and a lot more rewarding. Not everyone can wake up at 4 in the morning to drive 2 hours to a case, sit in a hot van with no AC for 8 hours and only get 2 minutes of tape as the person walks down their driveway to get the mail and bend over to pick up a box. It's not a glamorous life by far. The hours and long and the pay isn't that great (low hourly offset by triple digit hours of work a pay period) but it's something that needs to be done.

After coming to this realization, I cracked open another beer, kicked my feet up and watched as Hugh Laurie insulted his staff and saved another life.


Friday, October 24, 2008

It's The Way...

I catch her looking at me and smiling when we're driving.
She responds to my touch when I curl up with her at night.
She whispers "I love you" when I pull her close in bed.

Small things like that let me know how loved I am by her. Those little things make all the difference in the world. I've also been smiling so much that my cheeks actually HURT! Definitely a good hurt though. I can't recall a time I ever smiled that much. Such a wonderful feeling.

My last post I talked about going to a costume party and to have pics up. Well I pretty much failed about getting those up here! My bad. I could say that I'll make it up by posting them up soon or posting them with pics from the Halloween party we're going to but lets be honest...we all know that's as likely as Ron Paul winning the elections from write in votes!

I'm currently in a state of confusion. Confusion about where I'm at and how I want to move forward in life. My job right now is very interesting and challenging, but I hate working 110 hours a pay period making a little more than my last job where I worked 80 hours. I want to keep this job but the pay is so low right now. I want to tough it out but my current financial situation will not allow that. I need to find a good paying job and find it fast. I've even considered taking on jobs that normaly wouldn't appeal to me as long as the money is there. I just have to keep looking and hope for the best...

Went to a few weddings lately. I must say they have been an absolute blast! I forgot how fun they can be (especially after a few drinks!). I kinda think Theary and I would be good wedding crashers since we're pretty social when drunk. =P Can't wait for the next one! Plus it's a good reason for me to get all dressed up and put on something other than cargo shorts. :P

That's about it for now. No promises for when the next post will be! =P